apparently that's *ALL* i am- an idiot who provides you with amusement.

i just got done visiting with someone from the ymca to talk about what resources i need in my life to make me TRULY HAPPY and SUCCESSFUL (because that IS what it'll take for me to be TRULY happy and NOT just living off of social security and attending some pathetic excuse of a "rehabilitation center" who only assist people with advocacy that'll stroke their dicks(which i don't have) THE ONLY REASON WHY I EVEN BOTHERED TO GO THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE WAS BECAUSE MY GRANDMA DIDN'T KNOW WHERE ELSE I COULD GO AND I'M GETTING FUCKING SICK OF EXPLAINING THIS SHIT). LEARN HOW TO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOUR RELATIVES AND NOT JUST SO IT APPEARS YOU "CARE" ABOUT THEM WHEN NOT ASKING THEM WHAT THEY TRULY WANT. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE WHEN YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT WHAT I, THE OWNER OF MY LIFE WANTS FOR MY LIFE. JUST AS LONG AS IT'S MORE BENEFICIAL AND CONVENIENT FOR YOU. amanda really IS naive because i see my nosey ass cousin's friend viewing my timeline on facebook- so my nosey ass cousin dustin must be reading my timeline since i blocked him because i find absolutely NO reason to remain "friends" with someone who just wants to amuse themselves with what's going on with someone who's ACTUALLY trying to do something with their lives which doesn't include throwing it all away to remain in some boring ass state, miserable because i don't have anything better to do- so i resort to insulting people who are actually TRYING to do something with their lives besides take the easy way out and depend merely on social security while my family and so-called friends just laugh at me like i'm some kind of joke LIKE YOUR SISTER AND HER STUPID BOYFRIEND DO. IF amanda had ANY intelligence- she'd recognize that dustin just reminds me of EVERYTHING i HATE in THIS state. he's the whole package- bigotry and racism tied with nosiness!.. so a male version of amanda. I PUT YOU DICKS ON BLOCK FOR A REASON. YOU DESTROY MY MENTAL HEALTH. take that as a compliment of actually making an impact in someone's life because that's what people like you would do. JUST MIND YOUR BUSINESS. that's ALL you gotta do. dustin is DEFINITELY NOT gonna change my mind. it actually makes me more desperate for finding an exit to this shithole of a state. you're a complete fucking moron if you don't understand WHY i want to move from this state.. fuck the hell off. maybe now your stupid asses recognize EXACTLY why i've been so anxious to leave this state because all my damn relatives were busy condoning my mom's pathetic excuse of parenting. unless i was the only idiot who just figured out this shit after TWO surgeries on my bowel so far and my traumatizing reminiscing dreams. which could be possible. that provides another reason for me to get the hell outta this state because people IN THIS STATE think i'm too much of an idiot to handle something traumatizing that happened to me. it was kinda like God was trying to explain the reason why i was going through so much shit (all the surgeries on my bowel) and my mom has NEVER taken accountability for it or even brought it up to me. EVEN the man who nearly killed me driving drunk when i was 16 could take accountability for the accident and apologize- my OWN mom? PFFT. SHE'S TOO ENTITLED TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER STUPIDITY. IT HAPPENED A LONG TIME AGO. STACY'S STUPID! SHE'LL NEVER REMEMBER! RIGHT MOM? HELL NO. it just pisses me off that this shit is condoned by my damn family because they want to "keep the peace". WELL KEEP THE PEACE WITHOUT ANY FUCKING COMMUNICATION TO ME. MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS AND FIND SOMETHING THAT CONCERNS YOU THAT ACTUALLY MATTERS TO YOU BECAUSE I OBVIOUSLY DON'T AND YOU'VE PROVEN THAT WITH YOUR IGNORANCE OF WHY I WANT TO GET OUTTA HERE. YOU LACK EMPATHY AND IN ORDER TO REALLY CARE ABOUT SOMEONE- YOU NEED TO HAVE EMPATHY AND RESPECT HOW YOU'D FEEL IF IT WERE YOU IN THEIR SHOES. i'm getting annoyed having to explain this to someone who acts like they know everything, so i'm gonna go watch fresh prince.